Everyday

school’s out.. finally! i can hardly bring myself to believe that a whole year has come and is going in just about a month or so. so much has happened this year, and time is flying like.. i dont know what.

Promos came as quickly as it went, and i’m really thankful for my results. i mean, i can’t believe that i actually passed every single subject (on the entire year’s basis). and it couldn’t have been my own effort that got me promoted to Year 2. so i really thank God for this promotion, and i know He is going to make next year an awesome one, full of His favour and blessings

the recent NE trip with 0933 to Marina Barrage turned out to be pretty fun, with the amazing weather that Daddy God blessed us with despite the rainy season. spent most of the time taking photos and sitting around and i ate a banana! hahaha. facebook has all the photos

my 17th birthday was also an extremely blessed one, what with Water Baptism and all the wonderful birthday greetings woke up in the morning, read the birthday greetings sent by all the wonderful souls, got dressed, and went to East Coast Park for water baptism. after baptism, my family went home to put down our stuff, and went out to Hougang Mall to eat ajisen woohoo. my all-time favourite restaurant muahaha. i had a pretty enjoyable time because it’s not everyday that my whole family gets together for a day out. that was also another plus point of the day. really appreciate every minute spent

oh and how could i forget, PW’s officially completely over! OP was kinda crappy, i think i screwed up but well, just trust in the Lord really thank God for grouping me with crystal, evelyn, yimei and well, even jiaji. because even though he pissed me off big time during the duration of PW (in other words, two thirds of the year), i think i managed to look at him in a different perspective. and i’m no longer as impatient as before. he’s human, and all humans have feelings. so why hurt each other, right? i’m sure i want the same respect given to me as well. i’m sure everyone does. but i must admit, i did lose my patience quite a number of times, only to feel guilty after that, and spoke to him nicely. it was kinda like a cycle la. haha.

i kinda miss PW actually. well not exactly the part where we have to do the project, but the times when we had fun together. i really enjoyed the sleepovers, the trips to HK cafe, walking around Outram Park area aimlessly looking for baba house, the trip to the Peranakan Museum (especially the part where the 4 of us cowered at the funeral part of the museum because of the creepy wailing), and most of all, the days we spent in geog room. all of that may be over, but i will always rmb those times!

anyway, i’ve learnt that money can really harm relationships, even people of my age. had a recent encounter (maybe two), but well, as what my mum always says, dont let money get between people, so well, i just let the matter go and paid for something that i’m not sure i should be paying for. but it’s alright, because while others may lack, i never will because i have a Heavenly Father who blesses me with more than what i could ever ask for

so, sept hols are here but it doesn’t feel like holidays at all. although i’m still skiving from studying but still, there’s the knowing that i have to study. so doesnt feel like hols lor.

i’m not an avid fan of Singapore Idol, but i’ll just talk about it anyway. the top 13 were announced yesterday and i’m quite disappointed that charlene and gabrielle (? i think that’s the spelling) and ryan didn’t make it. i know many people don’t like him, but i do admire how he’s just straightforward and honest with what he thinks. well that’s just my opinion and judgement from what i saw from the episodes that i did watch lah.

anyway, was supposed to go over to nadia yeo’s place to study, but lazy us decided to stay at home after all. so well, i basically just wasted my whole day away. and tonight got ANTM, so you prolly wont catch me studying at night either. oh and let me tell you all something very shocking, i actually stayed up till 2.3oam this morning! i was doing my econs. actually i spent the whole of yesterday doing the econs sept hols assignment. quite unbelievable right. like what the hell, one whole day just doing the econs assignment and still need to stay up till 230am. but as usual i just kept daydreaming lah. and i kept walking around the house also.

and today’s worse cos i only did one math question (and it wasn’t even a difficult one) and decided that i was too tired to carry on and went to take a nap. haha. hey i woke up at 10am ok. without alarm clock! fine my body clock’s weird, it likes to wake me up earlier than other people, regardless of what time i sleep. and because i stayed up so late last night, i also happened to catch the last episode of The Bachelor (dont know season what). the stupid lorrenzo guy chose jennifer over sadie. sadie is so much sweeter can. but anyway i went to wikipedia to check and found out that he and the girl broke up (hehehe). ok i’m being very very biased because i only watched one episode so what do i know about the girls right. but i just prefer sadie ok.

ok i should stop talking about reality tv (which is hardly real anyway, too much fakeness <- if there’s such a word) and go and bathe and then watch tv and try to study in front of the tv. cannot miss any show tonight cos tonight’s the last episode of paris and milan (noooooooooo!!!) i love auntie lucy and beatrice! esp their (or rather, his) ’so embarrassing!!!’ and ‘may i help chu’. ugh bummer.

being sick made me realise how much people really care. today is the 3rd day that i’ve been sick, and people have been showering care and concern. thanks guys, really appreciate it

my temperature has been fluctuating these few days, with random fevers here and there, with the lowest temperature being 37.4 and the highest being 38.3 degrees celcius. but praise the Lord, because Jesus has already carried ALL my sicknesses and diseases at the cross 2000 years ago when he was crucified. Amen

anyway, got sent home today. i’ve been in a dilemma every morning, deciding whether or not to go to school. but since i felt fine, except for a slight cough and a flu, i still went to school as usual. ok, i’m not being socially responsible by doing this, what with the h1n1 scare and everything, but shall trust God that He will restore health to everyone around me, including me lah but anyway, i ended up sitting through all but the last 2 lessons of the day. because dear Eileen asked me to take my temperature when she felt that my skin was warmer than usual, and my temperature ended up being 37.9 degrees celcius. then they went to tell Miss Sim that i was running a temperature, and everyone insisted that i go home lest i spread my germs to them haha but i really appreciate everyone’s concern

so i carried my bag and went home, and around half the class escorted me to the main gate. haha. everyone was so funny lah, they all rushed to carry my bag and file and water bottle. you all just want to skip chem lesson right! hahaha. but anyway, thanks everyone

shall end this short post off with Pslam 91

He who dwells int he secret place of the Most High
shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
i will say of the Lord,
“He is my refuge and my fortress;
my God, in Him i will trust”

surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler
and from the perilous pestilence.
He shall cover you with His feathers,
and under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
you shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
nor of the arrow that flies by day,
nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.

a thousand may fall at your side,
and ten thousand at your right hand;
but it shall not come near you
only with your eyes shall you look,
and see the reward of the wicked.
because you have made the Lord,
who is my refuge,
even the Most High, your dwelling place,
no evil shall befall you,
nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
for He shall give His angels charge over you,
to keep you in all your ways.
in their hands they shall bear you up,
lest you dash your foot against a stone.
you shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
the young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.

“because he has set his love upon Me,
therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high,
because he has known My name.
he shall call upon Me, and i will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
with long life I will satisfy him,
and show him My salvation”

ok i’ve finally decided to update my dead blog. haha. the last post was on 4th april! it’s 2nd july already. so it’s been 3 months minus 2 days since i last updated. haha.

so many things happened in this 3 months. Drama Night came and went, June hols came and went, MYEs came and are ending tomorrow woohoo! anyway i’m really thankful for the Drama Night experience, because it was truly awesome and i learnt a lot from it. got to know many great people too!

June hols weren’t very fruitful.. because the 1st two weeks, we were busy planning for the J2 farewell party as well as drama night post production party (PPP) which turned out to be ALMOST total failures. to think we spent so much time planning the parties. but well, gotta thank those who made the effort to turn up!

oh and i’ve been made treasurer cum secretary of english drama. the post came as pretty much of a huge surprise, seeing how i screwed up my election speech (it wasn’t much of a speech and the seniors said the election wasn’t really based on speech but more of our performance during drama night, but still!). well anyway, i felt totally stupid after the election speech and cried when i went back to the holding room and felt even more stupid after that. but who wouldn’t feel stupid after saying such dumb stuff to the seniors right. for example, they asked me to talk about myself and i said ‘err, i have a dog…?’ and then they asked me some other questions which i totally could not answer and i just looked helplessly at the furniture around the room. and i was a slacker-stage manager during drama night too. so yup, the post did come as quite a huge surprise. anyway, thanks seniors and drama club for trusting me with this post i’ll try not to disappoint! haha.

one of the nice things about the June hols would be finally meeting up with Nadia Yeo my dear sister! i went over to her condo with the intention of studying, but in the end we just kept looking down at the pool and watched people swim. so then we drew up 4 study rules, but in the end we didn’t get to meet again because i had to go to school quite frequently to plan PPP and farewell party for the 1st two weeks and she was going to Europe for the 2nd two weeks. so next time then!

anyway, there’s something really really exciting coming up! and thats… THE ZONE!!! wooohooo it’s gonna be so awesome i can feel it in my bones! haha. can’t wait can’t wait for 25th july! i’ve gotten my ticket, have you?

oh and another nice thing that happened in June was of course none other than beloved 4F’s bbq night! it turned up to be quite a success! the only turn-off was the fact that about half the class ran off after the bbq ended, so the rest of us were left to do the cleaning up -.- thanks ah. but i don’t really mind cos cleaning up is pretty fun when everybody does it together

after the bbq ended and after clearing up, we went to sit on the huge rock on the beach to talk about whatever memories we have of 3F and 4F in the past 2 years. and the atmosphere was pretty nice too, with the wind blowing and the sea splashing against the rock we were all sitting on. so yup, those who went home, this is what you missed!

ok i should really get started on my chem revision, because tmrw’s my H1 chem paper. and the nastiest thing is that it’s an afternoon paper. man, they couldn’t have just put it in the morning so that we can just get it over and done with and go for lunch happily. and it’s such a bother going to school in the afternoon, with the hot sun and all that. it just feels so crappy luh. the only good thing is that the buses aren’t going to be crowded like in the morning. so yup, look on the bright side!!

i’ve been made stage manager for Drama Night. i don’t know what to expect (yet), but hopefully i’ll be able to learn something from this experience. haha. according to many people, it’s not an easy job. well at least i don’t have to act. bad thing is, i have to be present for every single rehearsal. and rehearsals start at like, 5 or 6 (excluding wednesdays). well, shan’t grumble anymore, shall expect good things to come out of this!

so, just finished irritating zhengyi. he asked me for chingen’s email address and i just kept asking why to whatever he said. hahaha. so fun so fun! who ask him to always disturb me. and he says that he is going to flick me the number of times i asked why. whatever man, bring it on! as if i can’t flick back. hahahaha.

anyway, school ended at 130 yesterday. well actually 1230 but we had an econs make-up lesson. so ended at 130. then i texted Chianglin to ask her if the reading through of one of the scripts was still on at the same venue at the same time. then she told me that the time had been changed to 6! (it was 4). so well, i didn’t want to create this impression on people that i’m a damn lazy stage manager so i went and i’m glad i went. even though i stayed in school alone for so many hours. because Yijuan and Crystal went home at around 2+ then Cynthia, Evelyn and Eugene went off also at around 3+ for their respective ccas/programmes. so i sat alone in the canteen and studied. ok i didn’t really study. i was mostly dreaming and looking around. and of all days, i forgot to bring my mp3 yesterday. like what the hell right, time would’ve passed more quickly if i had my mp3 with me.

at around 6, yijuan came back to school to accompany me to drama even though yesterday’s read through didn’t include her scripts. so yup, i’m very grateful we had lots and lots of fun laughing at Yi Ge Dong and Di Er Ge Dong! hahaha it was so funny! anyway, after the read-through, we went to Subway for dinner! hehehe. i like

and congratulations to all who got into Council! especially Yimei and Wanxin! those 5 that i voted for all got in. hehehe. Yimei and Wanxin are just 2 of the 5 that i voted for. i also voted for Nicole (Yijuan’s friend) and A13 and another guy. haha. was in the canteen yesterday when the council nominees got to know the election results and i saw this girl who cried very very badly and i felt very bad for her. hope she finds a cca that she enjoys soon. then the fact that she didn’t get into council wouldn’t hit her so hard.

firstly, i wna apologize to clique of 10 for not going for the much anticipated dinner on Thursday evening. especially to Yikai, because i know that it took much effort to gather everyone as all of us have very different schedules. but i didn’t join you all because i had to meet my PE project group online for the discussion and Thursday night was really the final chance for us to get the discussion done because our leader has council camp from Friday to Sunday. here’s a brief idea of what happened..

ok so Yimei (leader of the 13-people PE project group) sent everyone a text message to inform us of the online meeting at 8pm on Wednesday night. but Yijuan and i were out studying with Boyang so we texted her back to say that we will not be going online, and asked her to tell us what our tasks were when they finished the discussion.

later that night, we learnt from Yimei that no one went online at all. i have no idea why, but anyway, she proposed another online discussion meeting on Thursday night, at 8pm also. so of course Yijuan and i shouldn’t miss another discussion after being absent for the 1st night. so we decided to miss clique dinner (after much discussion) and went online at 8pm for the discussion. and of course, after having missed such a much anticipated dinner, we would expect most or at least half of the group to be online for the discussion. but no such luck. because at 8pm, only Wuhuan, Zoey, Yijuan and i were online. then at 8.30, Crystal came online too. and that was it.

so, 5 out of 13 people did further research on Interesting Facts about Austria and Yijuan collated the information and printed it out. then we decided on a board kind of presentation as we didn’t know if ppt was going to be accepted and didn’t wna risk re-doing the entire project. so we discussed the time and venue and it ended up that only Crystal, Yijuan and i did the entire thing. sounds sucky right? but wait, i haven’t finished!

despite all these, God never disappoints! because He made the entire process of the project a most enjoyable one! Crystal, Yijuan and i met at 11am yesterday at Compass Point for SUBWAY(!!!) and then we went to Popular to get materials for the stupid PE project and spent a total of about $12 to $13. so everyone in PE project group please pay Yijuan $1 on Monday thanks! after that, we went to my house to print out the pictures as well as to set up the whole board.

and i must admit that i had quite a good time doing up the board! Crystal and me did most of the cut-and-paste while Smelly Yijuan who has very nice and constant handwriting did all the writing. and we’re very satisfied with the end product Mrs Koh can’t possibly say that she can’t see any effort!

but anyway, the highest point of the day came when we decided to try taking a picture with the finished board with the webcam in my brother’s room. but failed miserably! hahaha. then we started taking random pictures with the webcam and ended up having lots and lots and lots of fun! and it was so funny too to make different faces and do different actions! hahaha. i never knew that a webcam could bring us so much laughter! but i believe that it was God who made all these fun possible.

and at the end of everything, i looked back and saw that despite the circumstance, God can and will turn everything around for His beloved children and i remembered what Pastor said about how when the devil gives lemons, God makes lemonade. so so true and evident in this situation! God is so good

went back to school again for cca yesterday and the drama session wasn’t as bad as the previous one. it started at 9 and ended at 12. i don’t like going back to school on school holidays because i have to wake up early urghhhh. it is such a pain. good news is, i don’t have to go back for the rest of the week yay. haha. anyway, after drama, Yijuan and i went to compass point to eat SUBWAY! i love Subway hehehe.

after our deeelicious meal, we went back to nanchiau for friends of nanchiau meeting. ok i should stop calling it friends of nanchiau. because it is now Nan Chiau Youth Mentors. i think friends of nanchiau sounds more qin qie but we got outvoted. it’s ok la NCYM is alright too. we had to write down our names and details etc. actually only 5 of us from 4F went, namely Yijuan Yikai Zhengyi Boyang and of course me, but we ended up writing about 15 names. that’s because many people couldn’t/didn’t want to go for the meeting so they told us to help them put down their names. which kinda sucked because we had to hog the laptop to put down everyone’s details and 4E was also waiting to type their details into the laptop. felt kind of bad about it too.

anyway, after the meeting, everyone went out of the conference room for a group photo and finally i got to stand right at the back muahaha. cos i’m usually right in front due to being only 156cm in height hahaha. but the group photo wasn’t very formal so height wasn’t really taken into account. so yay i got to stand on the bench finally! bad thing was that Zhengyi was standing beside me and he kept disturbing me again TSK.

after the meeting ended, Yijuan and i went home while Boyang and Zhengyi stayed in the canteen. went home and bathed, packed my books and went to Hougang Mall to meet Yijuan and Boyang to study. Zhengyi didn’t go because he went to J8. anyway, i was the first to reach and well, i couldn’t risk getting caught by the fairprice supervisors so i went to walk around the mall while waiting for them. i can’t get caught by them because Lilian called me about a month ago to ask me and Yijuan to return our name tags and locker keys, but i lost my locker key while Yijuan lost both. and lose name tag = $5, locker key = $10 so of course i’m not going back. hahaha. and about a week ago, Yijuan and i went back to find Chngchng but most unfortunately got spotted by Adeline and she demanded that we bring back our name tags and locker keys. then i told her that we won’t be free and we’ll go back as soon as we can. but of course i’m lying. haha. and Chngchng also told me that Lilian has been nagging in the chief cashier office about Yijuan and me because we never return our name tags and locker keys hahaha.

ok anyway, when Yijuan arrived, we went to find a nice seat in Macdonalds and bought some fries and studied. then Boyang finally came and well, we continued studying la. haha. actually i was dreaming most of the time and watching them do their work. haha. but i did some work also ok. and i ate my 1st ever McFlurry in my entire lifetime. yes, i have never eaten a McFlurry before until last night. but i only managed to eat half of it because i got sick of it then i gave the remaining half to Boyang. haha. then after that i went to buy an apple pie. i think yesterday was the 2nd time in my entire lifetime that i ate an apple pie. but i couldn’t finish it too and i ended up squeezing out the fillings and just ate the crust. hahaha. ok it may sound very revolting but the filling was sickly sweet. i cannot stand sickly sweet too.

then at around 10, Boyang’s friend Vanessa came and she joined us too. she was from nanchiau and she moved on to nyjc too! she just graduated. anyway she was really friendly and nice and she told us many things. then we finally left at 10.45 and went home.

yay my mummy has agreed to up my pocket money by $20 to $120 every month! hehehe. but that’s because $100 really wasn’t enough. i don’t know why but my money seems to just disappear into thin air.

anyway went out with Yijuan and Crystal yesterday whoo! we went for a meal at Subway then we did some shopping. that’s a very summarized summary of the day but i don’t feel like writing out everything in detail. the most maddening thing of the day was that i saw this extremely gorgeous and pretty watch from Nike. BUT it costs $279!!! who in the right mind would buy a watch that costs $279 especially after i just bought a Fossil watch for $145 right. it’s a sports watch so it can replace my extremely yellowed white adidas watch. but my mummy said ‘no’ straightaway when i mentioned the word ‘watch’ to her. i didn’t even mention the price and she just said ‘no’

i can’t stop thinking of that stupid watch but it’s so friggin expensive! i don’t have that kind of money! so i’m praying madly that some crazy soul will come along and buy it for me with no strings attached hahaha.

ok i shall stop talking about that watch (which is so nice!!!). went to watch The One on Friday night and even though Cynthia didn’t win, she did a pretty good job! congratulations chairperson of 0933! and most unfortunately, Zhengyi sat beside me and he was so annoying! before that he kept bugging me cos he wanted to sit with Yijuan but Yijuan didn’t want to trade places with me. so he gave up and kept trying to flick my head and i can’t believe he succeeded. 3 times!!! ugh i am going to take revenge just you wait.

i am going to scrimp and save like mad from next month onwards! hope by the time i save enough, it will still be in the stores. or better still, i hope that i’ll lose interest in it.

i didn’t apply for the US trip in the end. because i couldn’t be bothered to let my CT sign the stupid application. but i don’t feel very sore about it though. i guess i’ll go next year.

anyway, another big question mark in my mind right now. and that’s the question of whether to join interact or drama. i quite enjoyed drama but last week’s session was a pretty bad experience because well, i am not an actor and the instructor told us to do some miming act which i felt 100% dumb doing. and she told me to redo it because i wasn’t serious so i got pissed off. i think i was too self conscious. well ok i AM very self conscious. but i shall trust in the grace of God that i will not be too self conscious. argh whatever i dont wish to think about what cca to join now. i’ll pray over it and see how it goes.

ok all things aside, we had PE today and i would say that today’s PE was the most enjoyable of all so far. hahaha. firstly we didn’t have to run any rounds around the track (YAY! because the sun was scorching hot today) so thank God! we sat around in the Grandstand and we talked and took this very funny video! hahaha. i jumped from one higher step to a lower one and Yijuan and Yimei who were on the lower step shook and tried to ‘balance and stand properly’ because of the earthquake that i had supposedly created by jumping down. haha! it was so funny and Zoey, who took the video for us also shook her phone slightly when i jumped to maximize the impact. hahaha i love that video!

after a while they told us to go to the hall and made us do this survey thing which was quite dumb and i actually contradicted myself a lot. hahaha. whatever lah wasn’t really in the mood to do things seriously. and the stupid hall was so friggin hot until they finally decided to switch on the fans. after doing the survey, we thought that we didn’t have to do any exercises. well we should have known better that NYJC PE teachers do not let us off so easily. hahaha. so well we went to the back of the hall and did some exercises. and it was sooooo tiring. ugh. but it was quite fun actually! i enjoyed myself pretty much. not to mention that i embarassed myself. ok here’s what happened…

we were supposed to do this wheelbarrow race and Yijuan was my partner and she held my legs. then halfway through, she couldn’t take my weight anymore and screamed for Eugene and Nazreen to help her. hahaha. so Eugene and Nazreen held my legs (1 leg per person lol) and tried to wheel me over to the other side. but i was so tired so i stopped and the 2 of them continued walking while holding my legs so my butt went up higher and higher then we all kept laughing and they let go of my legs and i crawled the remaining few steps to the end point and just laughed with everyone else. omg it was the funniest thing ever and also quite embarassing because we were doing it with another class! i hope everyone else was too engrossed with their wheelbarrows and their other friends that they didn’t see what happened lah. hahaha. but it was just so funny!

then after that we did hopping which i don’t like because i hop quite slowly. hahaha. i don’t know why also. then they made us do 35 sit ups but of course Yijuan and i cheated. hahaha. and after that they made us to this split jumping thing which made my legs feel like jelly. and finally they let us off. hahaha. i hope for more of such PE lessons! beats running around the darn track!

and i’m attending The One tmrw with Yijuan, Crystal, Vanessa, Zhengyi and Boyang to support Cynthia! whoooo may the best singer (Cynthia) win! haha.

the current big question mark that’s in my head right now, is the big question of whether or not to apply for the US trip from 31st May to 11th June. it costs about $3380 but there’s this subsidy of $800. and it’s considered pretty cheap for a US trip even though the cost is still pretty high. but it’s not the cost that i’m worried about because God will take care of it. so why am i still hesitating?

well here’s a couple of reasons…
firstly, i don’t want to go alone! as in, not alone alone but with people that i barely know. because so far i haven’t found anyone who’s actually going to apply. it’s like, what’s the point of going all the way to the US for 12 days, without your friends with you right. or at least one friend.
secondly, which also happens to be the reason why most people wouldn’t apply, is that the mid years begin after June hols. so if i go for the trip, i will only have 2 weeks to study for the exams.

actually that’s the only 2 reasons why i’m hesitating. small number of reasons, but they’re big reasons. ugh this is so maddening. i know chances like this don’t come by everyday and that it’s a really great big opportunity but i just don’t want to apply alone. that’s actually the main reason. i’m not really worried about the not-enough-time-to-study thing because if i really do apply then i know that i’ll have to be consistent in my work from the day that i finally make my decision to apply. which isn’t a very long way away, because i only have until 3rd or 6th of march to decide. i don’t know which because the form said ‘3rd march, friday’. doesn’t make sense right.

God help me!

and the stupid MRP (minor research paper) is so difficult lah don’t feel like doing already. it’s supposed to be a thousand word essay but i haven’t even hit 100 yet. argh!

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it’s pretty sudden that i’m writing about 4F, but i hope 4F’s spirit will never die! 4 Fantabulous 2008 owns all! and naming yourselves after us will not, and will never make you what we are. i hope that class will be more ‘automatic’ and get the hint to change the name which does not belong to you.

classes with no creativity aside, i miss and i love 4F. so much so much so much. maddening at times, but otherwise, so so so fun. you guys certainly made what was supposed to be the most stressful year the most fun one. i really thank God for giving me you guys. i love all of you so much! i want to go back to the good old days, where we would tease teachers no end, laugh uncontrollably together, hide in class, playing captain’s ball in our extremely rough manner, have paperball fights, and even getting scolded together. and to clique, i miss those days when all 10 of us would squeeze at 1 table and eat our favourite ‘zhap cai beng’. you guys are certainly the best classmates anyone could ever have.